黒崎 一護 // Kurosaki Ichigo (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
suppressthedark) wrote2017-12-08 03:40 am
suppressthedark) wrote2017-12-08 03:40 am
IC NOTES | CR Chart + Extras | NOPE ACADEMY
WHAT WE KNOW
Raccoons: Red (Patchy?) Pink (?)
Split between day and night (Chillaxing days | CD, Killing nights | KN)
Explore during KN with someone or stay in dorm room. Rewards for exploring? Can also kill people during it. If someone's found dead, we vote on the killer, if we vote correctly we get a reward. If no one dies, raccoons kill someone at random.
WIN CONDITIONS
Kill someone during KN and get away with it (I.E we vote incorrectly), Be with six different people on KN and not die - Can quit the game. Last Ten survivors win as a group and game ends. You can only lose if you die.
Rules: No Hurting Raccoons, No Hurting Others (physically), Don't Talk About KN Plans Publicly (even through writing), Don't Reveal Motives Publicly, Rules Subject to Change Whenever
Raccoons: Red (Patchy?) Pink (?)
Split between day and night (Chillaxing days | CD, Killing nights | KN)
Explore during KN with someone or stay in dorm room. Rewards for exploring? Can also kill people during it. If someone's found dead, we vote on the killer, if we vote correctly we get a reward. If no one dies, raccoons kill someone at random.
WIN CONDITIONS
Kill someone during KN and get away with it (I.E we vote incorrectly), Be with six different people on KN and not die - Can quit the game. Last Ten survivors win as a group and game ends. You can only lose if you die.
Rules: No Hurting Raccoons, No Hurting Others (physically), Don't Talk About KN Plans Publicly (even through writing), Don't Reveal Motives Publicly, Rules Subject to Change Whenever
PEOPLE I'VE MET
Dazai Osamu - Pessimistic, but means well. ...I think. Was going through alcohol withdrawal, but is better now. Alive.
Aoba Tsumugi - Kind of quiet and anxious? We were in the literature club, but Akechi burnt down the library. Seems to be doing better, though. Alive.
Akechi Goro - Burnt down the library. Akira says he's had a hard life, and he really reminds me of Aizen a lot. Alive.
Okumura Rin - A good guy, but kind of dim - he's a good sparring partner. Alive.
Aino Minako - Seemed to think I'd be good in show business or something? Is apparently an idol, too. Alive.
Ballas Caius - Had a chat about this whole thing, talked in a really weird way. Alive.
Ein - Helped me save a few books in the library. Seems nice. Alive.
Einsin Einsenbei Illya - Is apparently a hommunculus and older than I am. Died saving her brother before she came here through the use of something called the Third Magic? Alive.
Dazai Osamu - Pessimistic, but means well. ...I think. Was going through alcohol withdrawal, but is better now. Alive.
Aoba Tsumugi - Kind of quiet and anxious? We were in the literature club, but Akechi burnt down the library. Seems to be doing better, though. Alive.
Akechi Goro - Burnt down the library. Akira says he's had a hard life, and he really reminds me of Aizen a lot. Alive.
Okumura Rin - A good guy, but kind of dim - he's a good sparring partner. Alive.
Aino Minako - Seemed to think I'd be good in show business or something? Is apparently an idol, too. Alive.
Ballas Caius - Had a chat about this whole thing, talked in a really weird way. Alive.
Ein - Helped me save a few books in the library. Seems nice. Alive.
Honda Futayo - Doesn't really seem to know much about...well, anything except fighting. Seems like a good person, though. Alive.
Saihara Shuichi - Has apparently been in a game like this before, but this one's different? Seemed like a good guy. Alive.
Grim Eyes - Met her at the Gym. Didn't talk much yet. Alive.
Graham William - Had a talk about what we remembered before we got here, seems alright. American police officer, but retired? Alive.
Furudo Erika - SHE'S THE GODDAMN WORST. ALIVE UNFORTUNATELY
Mcgono Minerva - Didn't flinch at me telling her I'm a shinigami. Teacher at a magical school and she's a witch. Alive.
Kurusu Akira - Someone who I've become close friends with here. Has been through trouble back home, too. I trust him. Alive.
Kagari Atsuko - A witch, I think? But not from Minerva's school, somehow. She seems like a good person, if pretty spunky. Alive.
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Saihara Shuichi - Has apparently been in a game like this before, but this one's different? Seemed like a good guy. Alive.
Grim Eyes - Met her at the Gym. Didn't talk much yet. Alive.
Graham William - Had a talk about what we remembered before we got here, seems alright. American police officer, but retired? Alive.
Furudo Erika - SHE'S THE GODDAMN WORST. ALIVE UNFORTUNATELY
Kurusu Akira - Someone who I've become close friends with here. Has been through trouble back home, too. I trust him. Alive.
Kagari Atsuko - A witch, I think? But not from Minerva's school, somehow. She seems like a good person, if pretty spunky. Alive.
DAY ONE
So...we finally found out why we're even here. Just like Shuichi said, this is a murdergame - but the rules are different, not as forgiving? I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. Still, it's nice to know just what the hell we're in for. According to the rules, there is a way we can get out without having to kill someone - but that'll take time, and I'm not sure the people here will be patient enough to wait around for 6 days. I guess we'll just have to see how it goes.
Mostly just went around getting to know people today. We got some new people in that weren't here before - did the raccoons bring them in? Who knows. I also sparred with Rin - he's pretty good! I definitely want to do it again, but...maybe next time not in an area with a bunch of breakable tables and chairs.
Also, I've been having one hell of a weird urge to write things...Not sure why. I'm not even sure I'll have enough time to write anything beyond things like this, considering how this place is set up, but...maybe if I have any time before bed and I'm not wiped out.
So...we finally found out why we're even here. Just like Shuichi said, this is a murdergame - but the rules are different, not as forgiving? I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. Still, it's nice to know just what the hell we're in for. According to the rules, there is a way we can get out without having to kill someone - but that'll take time, and I'm not sure the people here will be patient enough to wait around for 6 days. I guess we'll just have to see how it goes.
Mostly just went around getting to know people today. We got some new people in that weren't here before - did the raccoons bring them in? Who knows. I also sparred with Rin - he's pretty good! I definitely want to do it again, but...maybe next time not in an area with a bunch of breakable tables and chairs.
Also, I've been having one hell of a weird urge to write things...Not sure why. I'm not even sure I'll have enough time to write anything beyond things like this, considering how this place is set up, but...maybe if I have any time before bed and I'm not wiped out.
POEMS
Shit blatantly cribbed from KuboAll the poems are written in the back of the book, past the notes and diary entries.We fear
That which does not exist.
---
People can possess hope
Because our eyes are unable to see death.
---
We attract each other
like water droplets, like planets.
We repel each other
Like magnets, like the color of our skin.
---
If I do not wield the sword, I cannot protect you.
If I continue wielding the sword, I cannot embrace you.
---
True, we don't have anything such as 'fate'.
It's only those who drink in their own ignorance and fear
And stumble over their own feet
Who fall, disappearing, into the muddy river
Known as 'fate'.
---
If it rusts, it can never be trusted.
If its owner fails to control it, it will cut him.
Yes, pride is
Like a blade.
---
Ah, we all dream
That we are flying through the skies
With our eyes open.
---
We reach out our hand
To brush away the clouds and pierce the sky,
But even if we seize the moon and mars
We still can't reach the truth.
---
We think the flower on the precipice is beautiful
Because our fear makes our feet stop at its edge
Instead of stepping forward into the sky
Like that flower.
---
Anytime we throw away our pride
We take a step closer to becoming beasts.
Any time we kill an emotion
We take a step back from becoming beasts.
---
I am merely practicing
Saying goodbye to you.
---
Red like Blood.
White like Bone.
Red like solitude.
White like silence.
Red like a beast's instinct.
White like a god's heart.
Red like molten hatred.
White like chilling cries of pain.
Red like the shadows that feed on the night.
White shines and Red scatters
Like sighs that that shoot through the moon.
---
Your shadow, stealthily
Leaves nothing of where you go, like a poisoned needle
that sews together my footsteps.
---
That's right, nothing else can change my world.
---
We are the fish before the waterfall.
We are the insects inside the cage.
We are the wreckage of the angry sea,
The skull upon the staff,
The torrent of power, all of which the whale swallows.
We are the Bull with five horns.
We are the monster that breathes fire.
We are the screaming children.
Ah, we are
Being poisoned by the moonlight.
---
We all
Die as we are born.
We always find the end
Before the beginning.
If to live
Means to continually search for wisdom,
We'll find the end waiting after our last lesson.
To finally see the subtlety of the end,
And to understand it completely,
Is what it means to die.
We cannot help ourselves from growing wiser.
Those who are helpless to their search for knowledge
Are those who cannot transcend death.
---
That voice that pierces my chest so deeply
Resembles a never-ending cry of ecstacy.
---
That wound is as deep as the ocean.
That bloody murder is as colorless as death.
---
People cannot be thought to define beauty.
However, flowers can be thought to define beauty.
A person's form resembles a flower
Only at the time of defeat, when it is torn to pieces.
---
The only true fear
Is to become a warrior who does not know fear.
---
To plunder
That which has been lost
Blood and flesh and bone
And something else.
---
There is no world without sacrifice.
Are you unaware?
We are
In a sea of blood, ashes floating in hell
Crying the name
Of a fading world.
---
Justice, for the sake of obtaining justice,
is constantly, endlessly doubting my own justice.
---
You may live bowing on your knees,
But die standing on your feet.
---
To know sorrow
Is not terrifying.
What is terrifying
Is to know you can't go back
to the happiness you could have.
---
I wonder, can I keep up with it?
The speed of the world without you in it?
---
Time encroaches from behind
Raising a howl as it ebbs and flows away
'Give up'.
As time seems to wash away your exquisite past
And tears away your fangs.
Do not look forward.
Your hope approaches from behind.
There is nothing but darkness in the muddy stream.
---
If the heart is unchanging
Perhaps, then, that could be called strength.
---
That heart is one that falls to hell.
Beneath that heart
Lies hell itself.
---
Is life the only thing
That gets cut off?
---
Even if
We are without form,
We do not stop moving forward.
---
If my words were to take form,
It would take on my failure to reach you,
Who stands in the darkness.
---
I,
Believing this world to be full of danger
Have, as my wish,
To protect you from that danger myself.
Because, within me,
Is an urge similar to that danger,
Something I cannot change about myself.
---
There is no difference
In living and staying alive,
As there is no difference
In dying and being killed.
---
It seems that I,
Even being this young
Even being this inexperienced
Have become withered with age.
As for adults,
Being so completely flawless
Is something that is impossible to forgive.
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...It's rotating.
The world changes with each rotation
And every time it touches the sun and moon
Its appearance always changes to something new.
If there is something that does not change
Then it is how powerless I am.
I can see the people here
I can touch them
I can speak with them
But that is all I can do.
They sometimes disappear in front of me
And I don't know why
But all they leave behind
Are their blood-stained bodies
And the lingering sense of pain and regret.
No matter how much I train myself
I cannot protect them
And every time I think that
My heart becomes a blade in my chest.
...It's rotating.
If fate is a millstone
then we are the grist.
There is nothing we can do.
So I wish for strength.
If I cannot protect them from the wheel
Then give me a strong blade
And enough power
To shatter fate.
---
If you give me wings,
I will soar for you.
Even if this whole land
Sinks into the water.
If you give me a sword,
I will fight for you.
Even if this whole sky
Is shot through with your light.*
*: In the japanese version of the poem, the kanji for 'bright/light/shining' that's in Akira's name is used here.
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Eski desperately attempts to copy Kubo's styleOriginal compositions penned for Nope's Peak.You,
Who I did not get to meet
Killed only as a warning
Against bringing boredom to cruel beasts
All I can do
Is pray for you to find peace
As your soul leaves us with the smoke.
You,
Who I only spoke with once
Murdered in service given by the words
Of a pretender to a Lord
All I can do
Is pray for you to find peace
As your body is gathered together this final time.
You,
Who I could not reach
Even with my hands outstretched
Even with my feelings bared
All I can do
Is pray for you to find peace
As you slumber under the trees.
You,
Who I did not meet once
Murdered by cruel beasts
For the crime of rebelling against them
All I can do
Is pray for you to find peace
As your body returns to the earth.
---
Death comes quickly
As quickly as petals falling from a withered flower
Scattering, scattering
Until they lie spread on the floor.
I am reminded of those petals
Every time the night passes
And I gaze upon a body of someone I know
Scattered, scattered
Just like a discarded, wilted flower.
- Ah, when is it?
When will I no longer see those petals
That lie broken on the ground?
---
I will not hesitate
To scream, to rebel
Against this cold world
Or this cruel fate.
Even if my body is broken
And my blood spilled
I will not bend, never yielding
Aiming my blade at fate itself.
LETTERS TO THE DEAD
Tsumugi
I don't know how to start this. I - we're in the trial right now, and I have to write something so I don't -
[There's a small tearstain where the writing stops.]
I guess...I should say that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I failed you. I should've - I should've talked to you, the day before, even if I couldn't move...I could have forced myself into a wheelchair, something -
[More tearstains.]
I...I don't know why you did it. Why you felt that alone, that you had to - that you couldn't reach out to anyone for help, but I -
- I would have...I would have listened, Tsumugi. I would. I'm sorry that I couldn't be there for you when you needed - someone -
[There's a black line on the paper, like he ran his pen across the paper after writing that.]
...I said before, that I'll take anyone to where they need to go after I get my powers back. I'm - I'm a shinigami, Tsumugi. I can take you to the world of the dead once I'm able to, and I -
- I just...want to talk to you. To apologize to you in person, if you'll listen.
I wanted to show you some of my poems, and...I can still do that. So, I'll leave you with one right now.
I'm sorry.
Die as we are born.
We always find the end
Before the beginning.
If to live
Means to continually search for wisdom,
We'll find the end waiting after our last lesson.
To finally see the subtlety of the end,
And to understand it completely,
Is what it means to die.
We cannot help ourselves from growing wiser.
Those who are helpless to their search for knowledge
Are those who cannot transcend death.
-Ichigo
Dazai
I hope you're at peace, now.
I just...I wanted to talk with you again. I know I...I hurt you. That's probably why you avoided me the day before, and I don't blame you. But I -
[A tearstain.]
I didn't want you to die. I didn't - I wanted you to live, Dazai. I know - I know that I might've been annoying to you, or that I was just some kid sticking his nose where it didn't belong, but -
You're my friend, no matter if you're dead or not. And I'll take you personally to the afterlife when I've gotten all my powers back. And when I do, I...
[Those are a lot of tearstains.]
Let me talk to you again. Alright?
-Ichigo
Niles
I didn't know you well before you died. Truth be told, I...just thought you were a weird pervert.
But I know about you now, and...I wish that I'd had the chance to talk to you more. That I could've been there for you, and kept you from taking someone's life.
I hope you're in a better state now than you were on that day - and I also hope that you feel like you can trust me when I say that I want to talk to you more, when I get my powers back. I'll take you to the afterlife, too - So stay in one piece, alright? Don't - Don't lose anything else.
Although it...probably is kind of funny that we've both lost eyes, huh?
...I'll write again, later. I know you've been lonely, and I'm sorry.
Take care, Niles.
-Ichigo
Farewell Poem to Akira
Yet, though tears and laughter
I vow to remember you.
You, who extended your hand
You, who shone with hope
You, who was always so steadfast -
You, who loves me and is loved in return.
I cannot repay the debts I owe you
In this lifetime or the next.
And I may never see you again
As our worlds are not the same -
Destined to never meet.
But even if I never see your face again
Or your smile
Or hear your voice -
I will always, always remember
The love we shared
And the heart that lies between us
Stretching ever onward
As we chase our futures in different directions.
Even if
We are without form,
We do not stop moving forward.
To stop would be to betray our heart.
I love you.