黒崎 一護 // Kurosaki Ichigo (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
suppressthedark) wrote2018-01-13 08:42 pm
suppressthedark) wrote2018-01-13 08:42 pm
Night 14 - May as well pop up a CW SUICIDAL IDEATION/DISCUSSION right now
[It takes Ichigo a while to wake up, drifting in unconsciousness as he is. Unlike the last time, when the darkness was so cold and he was afraid of letting himself surrender fully to it - this time he sinks into it, letting it cover himself completely in it's oblivion, so he doesn't have to think or feel or hurt.
But he eventually wakes up, despite not wanting to. Opening his eye to the ceiling of the infirmary is the hardest thing he's ever had to do, and for a moment he just wants to go back to sleep - but he knows it won't come that easily anymore.
With the onset of the night, he's sure that the votes have been tallied - and the pain in his entire body and on his shoulder tells him he injured himself pretty badly, but he doesn't want to spend another goddamn moment in this fucking infirmary, this lace that's only sent him bad news every time he's woken up in it.
So, despite everything - despite his deadened emotions and his screaming body, the look on his face a direct mirror to the one that Dazai had pulled on him when he was alive and Ichigo had nearly penetrated his heart - he sits up on the edge of the bed and starts to stand, silently heading out of the door in order to not alarm anyone who's still sleeping in the room, this time intent on heading for the elevator.
He doesn't want to try the door again, but he doesn't want to stay here.
He doesn't know where he's going, but he can't run away from the pain in his heart, so....it doesn't matter where someone so utterly useless goes, anyway.]
But he eventually wakes up, despite not wanting to. Opening his eye to the ceiling of the infirmary is the hardest thing he's ever had to do, and for a moment he just wants to go back to sleep - but he knows it won't come that easily anymore.
With the onset of the night, he's sure that the votes have been tallied - and the pain in his entire body and on his shoulder tells him he injured himself pretty badly, but he doesn't want to spend another goddamn moment in this fucking infirmary, this lace that's only sent him bad news every time he's woken up in it.
So, despite everything - despite his deadened emotions and his screaming body, the look on his face a direct mirror to the one that Dazai had pulled on him when he was alive and Ichigo had nearly penetrated his heart - he sits up on the edge of the bed and starts to stand, silently heading out of the door in order to not alarm anyone who's still sleeping in the room, this time intent on heading for the elevator.
He doesn't want to try the door again, but he doesn't want to stay here.
He doesn't know where he's going, but he can't run away from the pain in his heart, so....it doesn't matter where someone so utterly useless goes, anyway.]